Impossibility of happiness?
People say that my blog is very negative. All you can read is either bad stuff that happened to me or something totally unrelated to me. I never say anything good about my life. Indeed, I never do. As a joke I remarked that “blog must be bad” (a pun that only Lithuanians will get). But then I thought a bit - no, my life is not as bad as I make it seem here.
First of all, I’m alive. That’s quite an achievement, given that most of the human beings that were ever on this planet are already dead. I’m not ill with some terminal disease, I’m not handicaped, I’m not suffering excruciating pain. I have warm home, I have warm food, I have warm bed. Most of the people don’t.
However, the human mind tends to diminish things it wants to be diminished and aggravates things it wants to be aggravated. All that I mentioned above have become a given in Western culture. As these needs are fulfilled, human mind starts to look elsewhere for a problem.
Why? I don’t understand. But I know this for sure, you can’t make a person happy. Never. Once he or she achieves something, it’s not enough, one starts to search further. Every small detail that is incorrect becomes pissing off. It’s like plastic surgery. First of all you make wholesale changes that you really need because you look ugly, but after that you start to pay attention to the details no one would ever notice. You can never get happiness…
This is weird. This is really weird. Or is it? What if suddenly you realised that you don’t need anything at all. Wouldn’t it make meaningless to live and wouldn’t death become the only route? Is human existance meaningless without a search for improvements? Or maybe it’s just meaningless?
On the other hand, there is a saying: “Happy are those who don’t know”. Well, interesting idea. Maybe you can get happiness for yourself if you can stop at the right time, when it’s only small unnoticable problems that worry you, when you forget, don’t know that something is wrong.
OK, actually, it’s not that I’m very philosophic tonight. I just wanted to kick some life into this blog again. Good night, everyone.
Since the last time I wrote something I:
- missed a wonderful opportunity to get happy (and I don’t want to provide any more details than that);
- started a paper model of “ORP Garland”, Polish destroyer ship. At the moment it’s only the hull that is completed;
- officially left the band;
- wasted many hours worthlessly;
- made myself a board game from the info on the Internet;
- started the end-term exams.
